Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Our Last OB Appointment Before Delivery

Well, it's Tuesday January 6th and we went to our last OB doctor appointment before our delivery. We asked alot of questions and so did the doctor. I have to admit I am very scared. My doctor asked me if I wanted to have the baby monitored during delivery. I asked what he meant. He said normally we monitor the baby's vitals and if the heartrate declines or there is a problem, they do an emergency c-section. So I had to make a decision that if my son's life is failing that I would rather not know and choose to have a c-section. My doctor is very much against c-section because it is a major surgery and it would be too much for me to go through physically on top of my emotional pain. He suggested that Elisha not be monitored, and it was so very very difficult for me to agree with that, but I did. I honestly do not know what I would do if he is born still. I have waited this long to meet my son alive. All I can do is pray I get time with him. Then he did an internal exam and I am not dialted nor am I effaced...so basically I am closed up like Fort Knox! Then he checked to see Elisha's position and because of the shape of his head, he could not tell his positions. If Elisha was in a transverse position than the only option would be a c-section, then I was really terrified because that was his position for most of the ultrasounds. He sent me to the hospital to get an ultrasound to check his position. Thank GOD he is head down. I loved seeing him on the ultrasound one more time, he was kicking and moving away. It was wonderful. So the current status is go to the hospital Sunday night between 6pm and 7pm where they will start me on Cervadil to soften my cervix so it will dialate easier. Them Monday morning they will start me on Pitocin to induce my labor. I pray it is quick with minimal pain, but I know that is a shot in the dark. Right now Elisha is kicking me under my ribs, I jut cant beleive in less than a week I will be holding him in my arms. The ultrasound technician said he weighs approx 5lbs3oz. Also my blood pressure has been climbing the last few visits. It normally runs around the low one teens over 60-70's and today it was 135/88...he said it was dangerous if it goes up over 140/90. So we will wait to see what emotions tomorrow brings.

8 comments:

  1. Hey Shelly, I'm me, Leslie. I love the way you are able to see through the tears, feel through the pain, and minister through the heart during this challenging time of questions about "why?" Your mom told me how you have already made a difference in the decisions of other mothers. God is using you in a special way because of your obedience and ability to communicate "Hope" when things of the world look "Hope-less". I am lifting you up in prayer and all those who are in similar situations. You have a big commission that will manifest itself as a ministry BIRTHED out of death and alive because of Jesus. You are the cutest pregnant girl I've ever seen. Your radiance shines and your spirit moves with the Love of Christ.

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  2. Hi There, I found your blog from what to expect website. I am sorry for what you are going through and I agree with the poster above God does have a special purpose for you. Many blessing.

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  3. Hi Shelley, You are truly a blessed woman with incredible strength. Your trust in God will be rewarded. I was nowhere near as strong as you when I lost my son. Please consider joining the Women in Faith group on Yahoo Groups in addition to the support you get here. My prayers will be with you all day Monday and remember, God is still in the miracle working business!

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  4. Dearest Shelly and Enrique,

    I am a NEW member of anencephalyblessingfromabove. My name is Peg Kaiser. I have read through your blog and am deeply moved by your passion and strength. Elisha is a beautiful little boy and so blessed to have such wonderful parents. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. God be with you and your little one.

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  5. I am so sorry that you even have to go through this. I will pray for you and your husband, and for strength. i am so sorry. it just breaks my heart.

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  6. Shelley & Enrique,

    I cam across the ling to your blog on the waht to expect website and just wanted to let you know that you and your family are in my prayers. You are such a strong woman and God has truly blessed you with a strength unlike any other. I pray that your time with Elisha is filled with peace, love, and joy. I can't imagine your pain, but just reading your story has brought tears to my eyes. Sending my love to you and that precious little baby of yours. ~Crystal

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  7. Hello Shelly and Enrique. I cam across your blog in a post on WTE. I admire your strength and faith. We never know the situation fully until our little ones are here with us. I send prayers and thoughts to you, your husband, and your family. Be strong and enjoy what God has given.
    Take care, and thanks for being an inspiration and pillar of strength!
    ~Tonya

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  8. I am praying for you during this time. God bless you and I hope you know that there is a family in New Brunswick praying for you daily.

    Jennifer

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