More about Elisha's birth

There was alot I did not post last time like I wanted to but I was SO exhausted and just wanted to get on for a quick moment to let everyone know Elisha had arrived. So I will post all the details now. As I had mentioned the nurse came in and checked me I was somehow at almost 10cm dialated I honestly could not believe it, nobody could, I had to get ready real fast. I started praying imediately for peace over and over again. The baby nurse came in and met with me and talked to me while we were waiting for the doctor. She was asking me about his heart defect. I told her what I thought it was, and that he should still be able to live for a bit with that. However the heart defect that he had was not the one I thought he had, when she checked what it was, she started to explain to me that he would probably pass as soon as he comes out, that he would not be able to breath and if they put him on oxygen it would probably actually make him pass faster. So I then went from thinking I had minutes to hours with him to I will probably not have any time with him...and started praying even harder for peace, I was not prepared for this. They had called the doctor right away HOWEVER there was a woman a few rooms down who was also at 10cm who also had my doctor...she was screaming like I have NEVER heard in my life. It was worse than I have even ever seen in any movie. They had said that he would come to me first but since she was screaming so he went to her first. I was so worried because I knew the longer he was in my birth canal the harder it would be on his fragile little head. Since he did not have any skull on the top it would cause his face to be very blue/purple in color. The woman down the hall was screaming and screaming, but our nurses said that was all she was doing was screaming and not pushing so they were getting no where with her, they went and got my doctor and he came to me. He came in gloved up and we all prayed together one more time, and I started to push through my contractions my contrations were far apart 4-5 minutes so I it was while, but i pushed through about 5 contractions, I could not push for one more...I was so tired I knew my last one I had to get him out so I pushed like I never knew I cold and I heard them suction him up. I told them I wanted him right away...they could clean him, measure him, and weight him later, my time with him was short and I wanted him ever minute I could. When they laid him on my chest it felt like he weighed a ton, I couldnt believe it. Alexis was onlt 8.5 ounces, so I did not know what a baby felt like that big. He had one eye open, he looked right at me. He did not take a single breath but his heart was strong when he came out. He was kicking inside me until he came out and had to take his breath on his own, then he was lifeless. I gave my son life, he lived through me, in me. What an honor it was that God chose me to carry one of his angels. My mom, mother-in-law, and loving husband was there for the delivery. The doctor and baby nurse had to leave quickly to deliver the other mother. I looked at every inch of his body...I was so proud of my son for trying and fighting so hard, and I told him that over and over again. I had my mother-in-law go get everyone who wanted to see him, the room quickly filled up. With my family and friends the baby nurse came in, got her stethascope checked his heart and he was gone, she looked at me and shook her head. While everyone was in my room, he was pronounced an angel. I grabbed him as hard as I could and cried, Donna, the baby nurse hugged me. I did not mean for everyone to be in there for that, and I felt bad. I took a few deep breaths and tried to compose myself. I wanted to give everyone a chance to see Elisha. I had felt so much love in the room, I had very loving friends and family there, and the presence of God was heavy throughout the whole time. Peace was in my heart. Everyone got a chance to hold him and give him kisses. My mom and sister-in-law Tiffany were there with us late, they did molds of his hands and feet for me. We were alone with Elisha at about 12:30am. It was all over.