Friday, March 27, 2009

Alexis Faith Ramirez

I know this is Elisha's blog, but I have Alexis heavy on my heart. Alexis' birthday is tomorrow March 28th. She would be two years old. I can remember every inch of her and how she felt in my arms...or should I say hands just like it was yesterday. I often look around the house and picture her running around and being silly. She was so beautiful, perfect, and tiny. God gave me two perfect little angels. I know alot of you do not really know about my daughter. We found out we were pregnant a month after Enrique proposed to me, September of 2006. We found out by amniocentesis she had Triploidy at out 20 week appointment. I will never forget that day, and that feeling I had. A normal person has 46 chromosomes...13 from mom and 13 from dad. Alexis had 69 chromosomes...which made her "incompatible with life". I chose to carry her until the Lord took her. I was not going to take her life. Six weeks later I started making phone calls and preparing myself so if she came early I would not have to worry about her funeral things and etc. On that Friday of that week, my husband came to my job and brought me flowers and chocolates because he knew I was having a hard time and I was sad. I looked at him and told him I needed to get away. He asked what I meant...and I told him I wanted to leave right NOW and go away..far away. He said I was crazy. Well 1 hour later I had left my job and he called into work and we were on our way to Stone Mountain Georgia. On our drive up (7 hours) I told him when we came back we would have Alexis. He told me again I was crazy. I had a fetal doppler so I would know the moment she passed. I never felt her move or kick my whole pregnancy. I checked her heartbeat once a morning and once at night. I had checked it Sunday morning before we left to go back home. Sunday night when we arrived back home she was gone. Monday morning I went to work...and waited for the doctors office to open at 9am, and went and told my boss that I was pretty sure my daughter had died...I went to the doctor. The nurse practitioner checked and found no heartbeat. I was then sent to labor and delivery at the hospital, where an ultrasound confirmed her death. I was induced like I was with Elisha...and two days later I delivered Alexis Faith Ramirez. She was 9 inches long and weighed 8.5 ounces. The doctors said she would have sooo many physical abnormalities...but she was absolutely perfect. Just very tiny. I just needed to talk about my daughter...and remember her, thank you all for listening. Alexis mommy and daddy love you baby girl, you are in our hearts forever and we will be together again one day. Happy Birthday sweet girl.
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12 comments:

  1. You must be an absolutely incredible woman... that God has allowed you to be the mommy of 2 of his most precious spirits... to be given the priviledges of creating their bodies and loving them. I know that the day will come when you will be able to hold your children. To kiss them and hug them and watch them grow. Until then, may the Lord bless you with peace and comfort.

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  2. I am very sorry about your losses of your sweet children. I have a baby girl in Heaven, and the Lord sent us 3 more children later on. I know the birthdays are very special days. God bless you. Sarita Email if you need to talk. sboyette@tx.rr.com

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  3. you are soooooo beautiful...i wish i could give you a hug.

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  4. Happy Birthday Alexis! Shelley, I cannot even begin to imagine how this has felt to you. But my heart aches for you and your sweet children. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you are doing well and are able to somehow celebrate Alexis's birthday today!

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  5. It is so good to be able to remember her and talk about her. She will always be a part of you. Happy heavenly birthday, Alexis.

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  6. Thinking of you today and wishing Alexis a happy birthday in Heaven.

    What a blessing to have read her story today, I am feeling a bit down myself of a loss and your story was just so beautiful to hear.

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  7. Happy belated birthday Alexis.Sorry i missed your special day. I worked all weekend so i didnt have a chance to come on here. I knew about Alexis because i made the angels for her and Elisha. I hope you still look at them everyday. Thanks for posting.

    Stephanie

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  8. Thinking of you as you remember Alexis....Thank you for sharing her story once again and for posting those pictures of her. What a sweet little girl - such tiny little feet! Also - thinking of you as your remember Elisha and praying for you as your heart breaks twice....

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  9. I'm a litle late wishing Alexis a happy birthday. Alexis...I know you are so cute & precious in heaven playing with all of God's little angels. I have a baby brother in heaven too. I can just imagine them all running and playing and so safe in the arms of Jesus. Shelley..you will get to be with Alexis & Elisha again one day and celebrate many, many birthdays with them :)
    God is going to bless you, I believe that with all my heart.
    "Happy Birthday Alexis" :)
    Melba

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  10. You are SO brave! I am amazed at your strength and Faith. I dont think I would be able to handle things so positive. I admire you and hope that we can get to know each other better! Happy Birthday Alexis!!
    Tiffany (from the WTE website)

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  11. Shelley, I love you! I miss both your babies so much!! I can't wait to see them again in heaven. Every time i think about them, I see Alexis flying as an angel and Elisha crawling on the clouds laughing and giggling at her! :) God has a plan for you, you will see. My mom has two different christian groups online praying for you... :) Your time will come... xxoo BFF

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