Hello friends and family. Sorry I have not been on here or updated in a while. I cannot believe how quickly time goes by. When I close my eyes, I can still feel him kicking inside. I just miss him. We have decided that in April we are going to stop protecting against getting pregnant. We are not going to per-say "try", but we are not going to do anything to prevent it. I am not going to stress about it, and I am going to leave it in God's hands for Him to do His will. I thank God He has given me the ability to deal with this as I have. I am thankful that I can go into public and not feel angry, or jealousy...and I can see another pregnant mommy and truly be happy for them. Only God could have gave me that ability. I am on a wonderful Anencephaly support group, all of which are mommies that have chosen to carry and not terminate. I wanted to share with you all the story of Faith Hope. She is a TRUE miracle. Any gift of life is a miracle, but this will touch your heart. She is a beautiful baby born with Anencephaly she is 18days old today! Here is her blog BabyFaithHope.Blogspot.com . Please visit it. Doctors say our children had NO chance of any life at all what-so-ever. I can tell you EVER life has a chance...only God has the last word. She cries, she moves, she giggles, she eats, and she can hear. All of which an Anencephalic baby is not supposed to do.
I have only two regrets with my son. One, that I should have asked for a stethascope to hear my sons heartbeat. He never took a breath, but his heart I know was strong. Two, I do not know if they did anything at birth to stimulate him to breath, I wonder if I would have done something if he would have taken a breath. Those things I will never get back. Not a day goes by I dont think of those things.
To all of you who are still keeping up with our story, and still praying for our family...thank you so much. It means so much. Thank you for letting our son take part in your life. God Bless.