Monday, February 9, 2009


I just felt I needed to write about my God. God is so good. It is something I cannot describe and that is beyond words. I wish there was a way to put into words how I feel about God. BUT GOD. God is so good. We tend to get angry at God when we do not get our way with things, or when you pray about something and God does not answer your prayer. But God ALWAYS answers just may not be the way you wanted Him to. God does not "DO" bad things to us...BUT he does allow bad things to happen to us. He does not intend to hurt us. God is what got me through the tradgedies of the losses of my children. Some may argue that it is God's fault that he did this, He did however allow it to happen to me and my family. And you know what, because of this I am a new person, I am a better person. I can hold my head up high and say that I ... I gave my children every chance at life they possibly had. I showed my children and undying love that EVERY child should feel NO MATTER what there disabilities or how short their time here on Earth. God rewarded me. He rewarded me with strength, wisdom, and peace. He walked beside me...He NEVER left my side. Although I am greatly greatly saddened that my children are gone...I KNOW that He is taking good care of them, they are in no pain, they will not suffer, they will not feel heartache. God is God all the time. There is nothing to hard for God, there is nothing to Big for God, and there is nothing to small for God. God is a deliverer, He is a healer, He is a restorer...He is everything you need Him to be if you allow Him. Enrique and I decided to get into a personal relationship with God on a vacation in Georgia in August of 06, after he proposed to me. When we returned from vacation, we started attending church right away. One month after his proposal and when we returned from vacation, we found out we were expecting. We had already had two misscariages. We were excited, yet nervous because we had lost two already. Obviously we did not do things "right" by God. But we were trying. I was new in the Lord as I really did not attend church growing up, and when I did I could not really understand the teachings in the denomontation I was in. But when we started going, the church we joined really opened my eyes to God, and that was the best thing that ever happened. That was when we were pregnant with Alexis. Who most of you know we lost at 26 weeks from Triploidy. But I am telling you that, to tell you this. God's timing is PERFECT. We started going to church a month later find out we were expecting, 20 weeks later we found out Alexis was terminal, we decided to carry her until it was GODS time to take her. We found God at JUST the right time. God's timing is perfect. And we get angry sometimes because he does not always work on the schedule we want Him to. But if you can trust Him, truly Trust Him...He will give you the peace that you need. I know for a fact had it not been for us going to church and me finding God, I KNOW I would have never made it, and I would still be a mess to this day. Actually I probably would have terminated my pregnancies. My faith in God got me through. Not only did God help us, but he put people in our lives to help us. He gave us the most loving parents, wonderful family, and wonderful friends. I am not perfect in any means, I am a daily sinner...but you don't have to be perfect for God to love you. God already died for our sins, all He asks is that you ask for forgivness and ask Him into your heart. BUT GOD...those are such strong words. I say them loud and strong and all the time. If you are going through something right now, and you are reading this ... please seek God. Seek Him like you never have. Talk to Him...He wants to hear from you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will never turn His back on you. I am crying writing this, He has just been so good to me...and most may not see it that way, but I do. God Bless you ALL. Thank you for reading this, it means alot
One more is easy for us to praise God when things are good, but please please don't forget to praise when things aren't good. Praise Him cause you don't know how it coulda turned out had He not been there. It is easy to say grace before dinner, but do we thank him when are bellies are full. Take a moment to thank God every day, it only takes a moment...and watch how your life will change.

Ephesians 2:4-6 (New International Version)
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus

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  1. Oh Shelley you said everything so perfectly!! God IS so good!!! Praise Him thru the sun and praise Him thru the storm!!

  2. You are so amazing! Thank you for posting this - I have been a Christian for a long time, and sometimes it's easy to get caught up in myself and turn to God in times of trouble but not when things are amazing - thank you for the reminder. He is using you in so many ways - ways that you may never even realize.

  3. This is exactly what I needed to read this morning. Thank you for being such a beautiful example of Gods love, peace, and patience. Thank you for letting Him use you to reach out to "us". You are such a blessing to so many of us who read your blog. Thank you. Bless you and your family.

  4. Shelley, this is your big SIs Lisa, and I have to say that you have made it your mission to let others know that you have made it through this with GOd's help.You are in pain right now and feeling lost and in hopes he will help you find strength to endure all this heartache. I wish you did not have to do this, but you have been chosen to show others where to reach out to when hard times fall on us.Keep the faith and your friends and Family near you! I love you < LISA MARIE

  5. Shelley, that was absolutely beautiful. God is good, even through the storms of life. I am getting there in that realization. And even though I don't always like his answer, I know that God heard each and every one of my prayers and answers them. God is good!! Thanks again for the reminder!

  6. WOW! What a reality check for me, I'm so embarrassed for my actions and more importantly, my non-actions. Thank you so much.

  7. That was so beautifully written Shelley. It's amazing how much faith you have. I really admire it & you!

  8. Shelley, I just found your blog through WTE and I must say, your words and story have touched me deeply. I strive daily to have the kind of faith your writing demonstrates. The good Lord is working through you, and I am sure you will reach more people than you ever imagined.

  9. Shelley,

    I have met alot of people in my life ... and I must say that you are a very strong woman and I think it is awesome that you are continuing to stand by our awesome God, the creator. I have been praying for you since I learned about you and I want you to know that I will continue to pray for you. I love reading your blogs and hearing aobut your relationship with God because it is so strong and your relationship reminds me that I need to keep my relationship with God.

    Rachel (Hannah's Mom ... WTE Jan 09_